love at first site

I met my husband when i was 15 years old. it wasnt until i was 17 did him and i beging dating, very soon, very soon i was pregnant at 17. we did not ask for handouts though. we both got jobs and saved every cent we had to get a small run down trailer, but it worked for us. after my oldest son was born it was the most life changing experience ever. all i cared about was this little baby we created. after a 3 week stay in the nicu he was released and we brought him home right before easter that year. At 17 , and not having the best relationship with my family, and barley knew my husbands, the anxiety of going thru all this alone was so terrifying . i started off just drinking beers, to relax , unwind, so much was going on, we had a few of our very close friends pass away, my stress kept building, so did my alcohol tolerance.